|Seize The Day, Or Die Regretting The Time You Lost, It's Empty And Cold Without You Here...
||[Aug. 18th, 2006|12:53 am]
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Well. The time has come. This, is something that I had been looking forward to for a while. But, at the present time, that excitment has diminished. But, I know I can't just puss out and stay here all of a sudden. I need to do this. This, this will test me to my limits. It will put more pressure on me than ever before. More pressure than haveing to make that block on the 1/2 yard line in double overtime to will the game. But afterall, isn't life just a game? I think I will enjoy this test of my will and strength.
The past month has been an awsome time for me. Unexpected love, as you may call it, arose. Packing has been a fun journey. Trips of countless miles to see those whom I care about, more than I ever show, and more than they will ever know. I know that I may not show so much emotion at the time, but I let it all go when I'm alone on the car trip home or in my room after everyone has gone and asleep. It's difficult for me to say how much I'll miss you guys. Life will be so different than just having that one phone call that sets off a snowball into something huge with us. I mean, when will I ever be able to call Kristen and be like "Bowling?" and it turns into a party at the bowling ally. Not many people can pull that off with such ease as we could. It will take a lifetime for us to find people who we can do that with. I know it sucks that I am moving out of state. But, it is for my own good. I need to expereince soemthing new. Be away from home and find new people in a new place in a new environment. College will never be like high school. if you wanna sleep in, Sleep in. No one to dictate your life except you and the schedual you laid down in front of you. if you fell sick, you don't have to have your mummy call in and tell the school. Just stay in. But there is also a danger hidden beneath it all. If we don't keep our act together, then we get kicked out. They don't fuck around. It's something new that I need to do.
There is soemthing that we all know. We all know that we have someone in our hearts, someone who is more dear to us than anyone right now. And I'm not talking friends and family. I'm talking about that special someone. That special someone who will make you cry when you have to say goodbye. That special someone who you want to surprise when you return home for the holiday. You all know what I'm talking about. We all have one. And, I do aswell. This person is someone whom I have know for a while now. I think since January. Yeah. We know who this special someone is in our own life. We can tell, cause you talk and think about them non-stop. You try to talk to them every chance you get. You get that nervous feeling in the pit of your stomach when you're about to call them or go see them. That one person who can melt you with just one look. That person who can warm you up with their touch. That one person who you long to see and will miss the most. well all have one. And we all must say goodbye to them at one point. I had to do that this morning. It was tough. I'll admit it. I cried on my way home. Then this song came on, and it gave me hope. Seize The Day, by Avenged Sevenfold. It's a song that tells us to live your life, and not worry about future things. And, I feel as I have done that the past few days. Used up gas and money, but it's a small price to pay. And I love that.
Peopel say that the real world begins after college. Fuck that shit. Honestly. You are off, living with some stranger, in a place away from your mum and dad. You have to learn to support yourself to an extent, and to manage your time and money. That, is the real world. College, is a job anymore, as my dad told me. It's true. You are learning stuff that you can only learn from experience. Honestly. It's to the point now, that you need a degree to work at mcDonalds. But, that is a good thing. It's a good thing, because, if you cna pay for college yourself, the government will help you out. They do this because, for one, college is expensive. Two, they are aware of the incease of your income just by being a college graduate with a degree in something. And this increase will be used to pay them back. It's a simple system. And it works. but some people don't see it that way. And they don't take advantage of it like other people. ::shrugs:: oh well.
Well, i think I'm finished. I'll give a real update when I get to Wykoff Hall. Until then, feast your eyes.